Saturday, June 25, 2011
I actually quite like my bonding evening with my brother if not for someone's not appearing to accompany me...
Truth to be told, today was the day that I really felt that I could trust my brother with my love life.
Look at the amazing score.
Like amazing only...
Next Part, after listening to kor your story, I decided to thrash it all out...
I said what I want to say after so long... Like so many things, I couldn't get it off my chest until last night.
I dunno how am I supposed to feel also...
It's like neither here nor there and I'm hanging in the air.
I am already reacting like I'm your girlfriend but I'm not.
It's kinda complicated and I dunno how to put it in words.
Now that I think about it, I didn't really get a proper answer even though you said you will settle down first.
I know I shouldn't be impatient and I should wait...
I also dunno how should I go about it.
I do know that there wont be a chance that I ever go out like alone with you like be it now and until you are ready.
I feel miserable, do you know how I spend my every single day without you? It's not about the countless times you let me down. Is the fact I am not being the better half for you.
I feel like I dun deserve you and I feel like crap thinking that I can't be the one there for you every single time...
Irritating I may be but It's hard to control myself like seriously.
Am I really that bad? I dunno.
Am I a great girlfriend? Obviously no, (who was there for you when you needed someone? definitely wasn't me these days...)
Am I on low self esteem? Yes, I can't help it.
People's addiction are drugs.
What about mine?
My addiction is you.
Hell, I'm being whiny and not so all loving right now and this confession sound like mushy only.
Sigh...
Note: I really really really miss you till I cry. Worth every single tear but will it have an effect? I guess not.
Truth to be told, today was the day that I really felt that I could trust my brother with my love life.
Look at the amazing score.
Like amazing only...
Next Part, after listening to kor your story, I decided to thrash it all out...
I said what I want to say after so long... Like so many things, I couldn't get it off my chest until last night.
I dunno how am I supposed to feel also...
It's like neither here nor there and I'm hanging in the air.
I am already reacting like I'm your girlfriend but I'm not.
It's kinda complicated and I dunno how to put it in words.
Now that I think about it, I didn't really get a proper answer even though you said you will settle down first.
I know I shouldn't be impatient and I should wait...
I also dunno how should I go about it.
I do know that there wont be a chance that I ever go out like alone with you like be it now and until you are ready.
I feel miserable, do you know how I spend my every single day without you? It's not about the countless times you let me down. Is the fact I am not being the better half for you.
I feel like I dun deserve you and I feel like crap thinking that I can't be the one there for you every single time...
Irritating I may be but It's hard to control myself like seriously.
Am I really that bad? I dunno.
Am I a great girlfriend? Obviously no, (who was there for you when you needed someone? definitely wasn't me these days...)
Am I on low self esteem? Yes, I can't help it.
People's addiction are drugs.
What about mine?
My addiction is you.
Hell, I'm being whiny and not so all loving right now and this confession sound like mushy only.
Sigh...
Note: I really really really miss you till I cry. Worth every single tear but will it have an effect? I guess not.
♥SWAK
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