Monday, August 22, 2011
You had your share to say it out.
Now it's my turn.
I think I need to clarify some stuff.
1) When we went out for movie, honestly speaking that was the day, I felt half happy half unsure.
We didnt meet up alone since the break up. And to see you again, it scares me and I didnt know how to face you.
2) If I lacked sincerity and convincement, I wouldn't even go for lunch and rush back to sch and after my lecture rush back to find you.
3) If I lacked in sincerity and convincement to be fake, I wouldn't go FEP to accompany you to buy dinner and waited with you for the bus. I told you I had to buy my friend's present and I left with an hour. You mean I sacrifice my time to accompany you and I lacked in convincement and sincerity?
4) I made you a good luck card. Was I fake in doing that too?
You mean I spend my stupid time to write a card and decorate it for fun and gave it to you? Well, if I known, I wouldnt have done all these things already.
Well, thanks a lot!
To say that I am fake, lack of sincerity, and convincement, it fucking hurt me a lot. To think that little stuff that I did like that to cause change your impression of me.
Did you even know I couldn't have a nice sleep cos I was hurting to the core? Your words hurt me big time.
You make me feel like I'm a dirty person.
Not to be exaggerating, I really feel that way after knowing how you viewed me as a person.
Thanks a lot.
I may hurt you a lot now and now I ask for that second chance? Im just wondering whether are you taking revenge on me. I hurt you a lot in the past but I told you I'm sorry and when I reflected and changed a bit, you denied me that chance to build back that trust. Fine, that I could understand cos I broke your heart.
Don't you worry, I will not make promises to anyone else, even to myself. Cos my promises are all broken. You need not to worry who's gonna be hurt the next time.
I never expected reciprocation. Just a simple thanks will suffice. I never ask you to buy me an ocean or license a mountain to me. I just thought an acknowledgement for what I did will do.
Well, kudos to you, I really have no mood already. I have lost all confidence. Thanks a lot.
And btw, if I wanted to be very sarcastic to you, I jolly well could have been. But no, I didn't. I want to save that last bit of me to myself.
On second thought, why did I even bother to explain? You will just think I'm finding excuses to redeem myself.
FUCK IT, I REALLY FEEL TERRIBLE
3) If I lacked in sincerity and convincement to be fake, I wouldn't go FEP to accompany you to buy dinner and waited with you for the bus. I told you I had to buy my friend's present and I left with an hour. You mean I sacrifice my time to accompany you and I lacked in convincement and sincerity?
4) I made you a good luck card. Was I fake in doing that too?
You mean I spend my stupid time to write a card and decorate it for fun and gave it to you? Well, if I known, I wouldnt have done all these things already.
Well, thanks a lot!
To say that I am fake, lack of sincerity, and convincement, it fucking hurt me a lot. To think that little stuff that I did like that to cause change your impression of me.
Did you even know I couldn't have a nice sleep cos I was hurting to the core? Your words hurt me big time.
You make me feel like I'm a dirty person.
Not to be exaggerating, I really feel that way after knowing how you viewed me as a person.
Thanks a lot.
I may hurt you a lot now and now I ask for that second chance? Im just wondering whether are you taking revenge on me. I hurt you a lot in the past but I told you I'm sorry and when I reflected and changed a bit, you denied me that chance to build back that trust. Fine, that I could understand cos I broke your heart.
Don't you worry, I will not make promises to anyone else, even to myself. Cos my promises are all broken. You need not to worry who's gonna be hurt the next time.
I never expected reciprocation. Just a simple thanks will suffice. I never ask you to buy me an ocean or license a mountain to me. I just thought an acknowledgement for what I did will do.
Well, kudos to you, I really have no mood already. I have lost all confidence. Thanks a lot.
And btw, if I wanted to be very sarcastic to you, I jolly well could have been. But no, I didn't. I want to save that last bit of me to myself.
On second thought, why did I even bother to explain? You will just think I'm finding excuses to redeem myself.
FUCK IT, I REALLY FEEL TERRIBLE
♥SWAK
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